Tuesday, May 09, 2006
soon my 21st birthday coming le.. act last time was quite keen for tis day to come but nw e feeling have ease..it seems like usual day.. i have work n i was lazy to swap shift with others.. but also cant take leave.. so i think stick to e schedule ba..
ppl around been asking mi.. wow 21st birthday coming le wor.. have u plan of hw u going to celebrate it..is once in a lifetime wor.. must make it "big"... but then making "big" means need to spend more money n more trouble to held it ba..
was questioning myself.. birthday can say tat is an important day.. but feel tat it lose e real meaning if u r e one hu planning for ur own birthday.. make urself busy with planning of where/hw/when/who to celebrate with u.. is like still have to "please" ppl to come for ur party.. instead of other ppl hu is willingly celebrate with u.. tat y all along.. i nv make any big celebration on birthdays.. n only few of my few close friends hu will celebrate with mi.. without pleading, without making others happi n make urself stress n tired..
maybe also becos tat our family did not have this tradition to celebrate birthdays.. at most buy a cake n eat.. but from don noe when my parents have forgotten my birthday.. i noe is not purpose n sth happen ba.. but then from tat yr onwards this also stop le.. becoming having dinner with friends..
wat i asking for my birthdays.. i don need any fancyful presents... not wallet, not money, not puzzle, not bks bla bla bla... wat i wan is a simple wish.. a simple gathering with friends n acc mi thru e nite.. ^^