Thursday, April 20, 2006
i was introduce a new job by Daddy's gf... was vvv thankful for e offer since i was still feeling vv lost.. haven send out resume yet but have a lot of thinking for tis job.. not say doubt of wat daddy intro mi.. is tat i doubt on myself.. whether i am gd enough as in language wise n whether i can cope.. or say independent enough to take tis job..
it is a 3yr contract n require to go overseas for at least 6mths to 2 yrs... pay is quite reasonable.. act thought of trying it out.. jus send resume n go for interview.. but i feel tat i am not ready in it.. till nw i still vvv depend in tis comfort zone. reach home got my mum n dad, help mi wash clothes, clean my room, cook dinner for mi, imagine a 21yrs old adult still need a table lamp to slp.. at own home liao still don dare to slp.. but sudden wan mi break lost from all this n have to stay in a unfamiliar area.. having big doubt of myself.. :s
nahh.. nw can see tat i am such a pampered kid... i noe i should go for it.. since it is a excellent chance to take a step out n learn to be independent.. at least gain some experience tat was not taught in SH, or can say is much much better chance than staying in SH.
Qoute from wat Noel have said to mi countless time:
u can simply exsist like a stone which has an easy life not worrying abt anything or do u want to live like something that has a life to endure and enjoy..
i noe i wan to strive sth in my life, but to do tis.. i must step one big step out from wat i fear of.. but till nw i don noe whether i can realli realli face tis.. haiz.. i noe tis is my own choice ba so
let mi consider for awhile more ba..